I actually spent my New Years in the hospital getting my Gallbladder removed. I had excruciating back pain for four days. So bad that I couldn't eat or drink anything. Any time I would try, the back pain would intensify ten-fold, & I'd just end up puking everything back up anyways. I became pretty dehydrated, had chills/shakes, was feeling weak & my urine had even turned a dark orangey-red color. I hate hospitals, so I tried REALLY hard to avoid it- but I just couldn't take the pain anymore. They took some blood and ran tests. My liver enzymes we're all out of whack so they knew something was really wrong. They did an ultrasound, where they learned my liver & gall bladder were inflamed & and I DEFINITELY had gallstones. And that strange colored pee was actually bilirubin. Oh, joy. When they did the surgery they found a gallstone stuck in my common bile duct, which was what was causing all the pain. When I woke up from surgery, I was apparently crying(real tears here, guys) and asking for Shaun. Oh, how I wish I didn't love him so much. The nurse said anesthesia can make you emotional. I don't remember much of my hospital stay after. Shaun did come to see me, even got to kiss me at midnight. Anyway- I'm home recovering now. I'm very sore, and the pain pills knock me out! I'll be better in a couple weeks. After a year of being sick constantly, I am REALLY hoping this is the end of it!
As far as resolutions go, I've thought of a few:
--- I want to be a better mother. Be more patient and loving with my babies. I want to appreciate every single second of them. After all, I will never get this time back.
--- Lose the rest of this weight. This has been a goal of mine for a while, but keeps being put off because I keep getting incredibly sick. I'll keep trying until I get to my goal though.
--- Become happier. There is still so much I have to learn about myself, and I really hope I am able to do that this year.
--- FINALLY start college. It's now or never.
--- Develop a closer relationship with God. Throughout my pregnancies, I feel SO close to God. It keeps slipping away though, I'd LOVE to find that again- and make it stay this time.
.. and of course- never, ever give up. My most important resolution this year is to never say no(while being reasonable, of course). Being afraid isn't doing anything for me- It's time to step out of my comfort zone.
As always, getting my life back on the UP&UP :)
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